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fuck the world with protection.
i hate everyone and every fucking thing.
Control yourself; Take only what you need from him.

damn it. don't understand.
why can't i get it right.
i like the feeling of not feeling.
my mind is a mess, i don't need it.
i don't care about anyone.
not sure why.
really don't give a shit.
if i like you i won't kiss you. ill be to scared.
i will be tense and uncomfortable.
ill be on my toes, trying not to do anything wrong.
i hate nice guys, die please. creepy ass.
i dislike many things, especially happy.
is that why i can't be.
not true; i am happy with my friends.
not true.
EURT.
i'm not in the mood right now.
i get bored easily, i want to stop.
love watching house, it is amazing.
i want to embrace death, i want to live it.
experience it once.
i love the snow, and cold. water; liquid.
down stairs; lab coats; throbbing; tears.
purple, purple, purple, everywhere.
YOU DID THIS.
i wanted you to, can i have you.
trick me into loving you, promise?
i'm not where i want to be.
cold feet, no socks. 5 pairs.
LIARS, you are one, a liar?
yes; fucking pig, not really; you.
i don't feel like answering my phone or talking.
leave me alone. go away. stop caring.
just for this week i want to be alone.
i lied to myself, im worthless.
what have i done, why did i do it. i didn't even like it.
bloody faces, purple faces, hands held.
rip it out, crush it. floor is clean.
long list, im over this.
next week it will be old news.
one week to hide.


i fail
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