day 26

His water bottle is empty.
Just like his food dish.
He is selfish and so am I.
He doesn't know any better, i do?
I guess that's the difference between him and i.
This may get some taking used to.








xoxo

night 23

When i say i can't see, i am blind.
I cannot hear, i am deaf now.
My emotions are running out of me,
Faster than the white rapids.
I need a lion tamer.
Help me. Help me please!
I can't do this alone.
If i listened to these voices-
I would be dead.












xoxo

night 21

hello, hello, hello.
Look up, yes you, look up!
Hi, hello there,
How are you?
Good, i'm glad.
I've missed you a lot.
When will you be coming back?
Oh, that's unfortunate.
I guess i will miss you.
Mhm, yeah, you're right.
Well goodbye.
If the breeze freezes this pond,
i know you are here.
But i'm leaving for a while.
It maybe forever.
Blow my way.
See you soon?













xoxo

picture book

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day 20

My new habit is not feeling.
I like being numb, more or less.
It's a non feeling type of feeling.
You are focused on feeling nothing.
It is like you are at ease with negative,
No, positive!
My thoughts haven't been so breezy.
They are flowing smoothly.
I feel as though i could float on.
My eyes haven't seen the real world in days.
In fantasy they stay, let go, its too late.
Being stuck here isn't too bad.
I get to float above everything, without sinking, my negative thoughts are gone.
Lets dance in the moonlight and throw away our cares.
It's okay breathe, i promise i won't let you go.
I'm in it for the long run.
<3












xoxo

night 19

Good to know, you weren't real.
The truth is easy.
Try it sometime.
Not that it is going to take you far.
If you weren't scum this would be easier.
You wouldn't be dripping down the drain.

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day 19

Fuck. Me.
My stomach is eating itself.
I guess it could be worse.
I could be an ethiopian child.
I bet you would like that, freak.
Who am i always talking to?
I start conversations with no one.
Do they ever get finished.
My head is never not filled.
Yes, i know, double fucking negative.
I'm tired of this already.
This song sucks. Ugh.











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day 10

Looking back, no, farther back.
Yes, that far.
I've realized i am constantly repeating myself.
Can i not make up my mind?
Do i want to make the same exact mistakes
Again, and again, and again.
It takes a few seconds to think before you act.
How many things have i ruined?
No need to count, it would be wasting your time and mine.
One. Two. Three. Four. Five.
Breathe. in : out. in : out.
And all i used to hear was your voice in the night.
Surprisingly enough it's gone.
I don't need you to fall asleep.
I don't need your witty banter.
You are nothing, not even a memory.
Absolute garbage.
My mind is racing at the speed of light!
Sleep is the only thing i'm thinking about.
Well other than, you know who.













xoxo

day 8

I wanted to say sorry.
Sorry that i haven't been here for you.
You know i'm a very busy person.
It's okay, smile.
Let me explain why this has happened.
July 4th, was missing something.
July 5th, i let my guard down.
July 6th, early confessions.
July 7th, Suga mama for the day.
July 8th, has just begun.

"Oh i just can't wait, to be King!"













xoxo

day 3

Let me recap day 2.
Started bad.
Ended with you.
Moving on.
I like being with you.
Is that bad?
I want to spend every second i can with you.
I don't think you feel the same way.
I'm scared.
Why does this always happen?
I don't even know what i'm saying.
Maybe i shouldn't be thinking like this until i know.
Please don't do this.
I feel useless.
One word from you and i'll melt.
All i hear are love songs.
Why don't you sing along.













xoxo

day 1

I am akward, timid, and nervous.
My palms have never been this clammy.
You're making me sweat.
I can't speak, i can only stare.
You are your own person.
I'm not used to this, it's perfect.
Well almost.
I just want you to be mine,
Without me scaring you away.
Don't let me mess this up.
You keep me safe at night.
My toes are never cold<3
You like when i bite you.
You spice things up.
You're not wasting away.
I need to stop thinking of you.
I won't be able to sleep.
You cute little thing you.














xoxo
ps: wish you were here<3