358

I feel as if i'm stuck here.
i just can't seem to change this.
i know i shouldn't feel the way i do.
i just want to disappear.
i could care less what happens.
i have a feeling it would be better
than what's happening now.
i don't want to fall deeper.
i wish i could escape reality.
i can't take it anymore.
these empty bottles aren't helping matters much.
another bottle, another sleepless night.
my eyes wont even shut.
it's better this way.
i'll just eat brains and become like you.



xoxo

359

no.
not now.
don't do this.
i can not.
no.

360

i can not stop thinking.
i cant even complete one thought
why am i lying to myself.
i can't separate whats real and whats imaginary.
my stomach is so empty and so full.
pretty orange and white balls.
you make me go crazy, you are so good to me.
you hurt me so much, i love you but i don't.
i can't believe it's only five p.m
i don't know why but i hate all of my friends.
i'm glad you're back in my life.
i'm sooo glad i realized that.
man, i'm gross.
grotesque is my favorite word, ever.
dead corpse are hot, kind of.
this one is so good.
shut the fuck up.
i can't concentrate.
explanation points are false advertisement.



xoxo

361

I'm feeling a bit cannibalistic.
I want to destroy all of you.
Anger, Grief, Depression.
I don't need any of those emotions.
NOMNOMNOM
Gone. I ate them, along with you.
All of you.
As i said before i was given the option to take two paths.
I chose "The road less traveled" or so i thought.
This path is a dead end, it leads n o w h e r e.
I am turning around, it's not worth it to be stuck here forever.
Especially with these pathetic people that lay here.
I'm done, I'm moving on.
I've improved in some ways but i still have a way to go.
I'm changing for me, and only me.
Just wanted to clarify to You.
Give it a few more years and everything will fall into place.
I promise you this.



xoxo