come back

Looking in your eyes
Praising every moment because you're my only light
Reading the stares at your passion that bears me now
Shedding no little tears
The silence scares us more than leaving could

Come back
Please don't leave me now
I'll be all that you need in life
Because I can't live without you and
I know all that you need
I can give you everything
When you're so far you'll forget about me

Waiting by your side
Knowing every moment is closer to your flight
Upset with the past, but it's all that holds us now
Believing no lies, telling each other we'll be fine forever

Come back
Please don't leave me now
I'll be all that you need in life
Because I can't live without you and
I know all that you need
I can give you everything
When you're so far you'll forget about me

But I'll wait
I could never leave those beautiful eyes
I know you're sorry
I know what you must be going through
And I feel sorry for you

But please don't leave me now
But please don't leave me now
But please don't leave me now











please?

silent films

for you

i listen to your voice.
i know i blame things on you.
it's easier that way.
my face is glistening in the rain.

+ sidenote

I'm above half of you.
Watching you die.
Why would i help you out, would you do the same.
No, you wouldn't.
Cause you're scum like the rest of us.
This view is breath taking.
I could sit on this cloud for days.
Alone, all alone.
Maybe with some friends that fit in my hand.
I would breathe them in, and in, and in.
We could devour the world.
All of us in one.
Let me draw you a picture.









xoxo

+10

I taste sulfate.
This is making me sick.
Hold on, let me stick my fingers down my throat.

Now back to business.
I am empty.
I can't think.
I may have just thrown my life away.
Doubtful, its not that easy.
Or is it.
If i could think i would.
If i wasn't surrounded by negative.
If i could start over.
If only.
I wish.
Maybe maybe maybe.
Get over it.
I'm tired of the past, stop following me.
I need to stop dropping these bread crumbs.
But it's so easy, it's comforting.
Stop taking from me, please.
You have everything.
Stop being greedy, move on.
I'm already sprawled across the floor.
I've lost too much blood to move.
How much more, tell me.
What else do you want from me.








xoxo

-11

I fucking hate this town.
I fell asleep for to long and now im lost.
Help me, why don't you help me.
Come pick me up and keep me warm.
Stop hiding from me.
I can't do this without you.
You know this, you do.
That's why you watch me from a far.
You want me to suffer.
Maybe you are helping me.
No, no, no. you're not.
Why do i even bother









xoxo

-10

I'm better than this.
I'm better than that.
I need to believe that.
I need to believe this.
I haven't closed my eyes in days.
I haven't let my mind rest.
All I want is sleep.
That's all.
Take me there.
I want to go there.








xoxo

+9

I wish you knew how much i needed you.
I wish i knew you.
These colors lay vibrant on my skin,
Next to the old worn out colors laying beside them.
I want to be vibrant.
I'm done being the same as everyone else.
I think i'm switching sides.
I haven't really put much thought into this.
I woke up sweating, itching, and i was blinded.
I feel like the life i am living is blinding me.
It's making me sick and tired of everyone that cares.
I don't like that feeling.
And yet i continue it.
If you just came to me and helped me
Maybe everything would be better.
I wish i knew you.
I wish you knew me.








xoxo

sidenote

I have the worst memory ever.
This week i was stupid.
I was very stupid.
I admit that right now and while i was being stupid.
I wake up with bruises on me.
I wake up with a throbbing headache.
I wake up wanting to leave everything behind.
I wake up regretting my actions.
And yet i repeat them throughout my life.
I say i will learn but i never do.
Writing this isn't going to help me fix my mistakes.
But it's showing that i realize i have made them.
And i'm going to think about things more and more and more.
Hopefully.
I want to be me with a little help of you.
Because i know you are my better side.
And i truly think i can't live without you.
Come into my life soon, please...









xox0

+8

I apologize for what I'm about to do.
This is the worst feeling you will ever feel.
I feeeeeeeeeeeeeel it, you will too.
At least i'm taking responsibility.
I'm leading a double life.
I'm headed in the right and wrong direction.
Nothing is wrong, nothing is right.
I'm doing what I need to do to grow.
I am watching you from a distance.
I don't want to lose you.
But i don't want you to know i'm watching out for you.
I am the moon, I will never be here for you.
I'm going to let go of everything.
If i let my body rest, if i set my mind at ease
Then maybe i could listen to the birds,
Without shooting at them.








xoxo

-9

I can't stay here forever.
I can't hide in this cave for long.
I'm all alone when i'm here.
Being surrounded by my surroundings is scaring me.
I want this stage to fall apart.
I let you down, and there's no fixing this.
That's a lie.
We all make mistakes, no ones is greater than the others.
To each there own.
I think that's wrong as well.
I'm not in my house for once.
I don't want to live there, i want to rebel.
I just want to be cut some slack!
I need to be pushed off the edge of a cliff.
I need to be pushed around to get things done.
I gave up many things for nothing.
Is is worth it, no, no, no, it's not.
I'm going to dipset.








xoxo

-8

I pressed delete.
There is no going back.
I need to get up.
I have been laying in bed for years.
I'm watching myself shrivel up.
I'm letting myself go.
I hate this place.
I think i'm going to leave.
I'm done with community college.
I don't want to hurt my mom.
But staying here is hurting me.
I know you can't run from your problems.
I know new problems arise where ever you are.
I know this. I really do.
But sometimes i just put that thought in the back of my head.
I just don't think about thinking.
I hate feeling like im in 10th grade again.
I hate looking at myself.
I hate feeling this way.
This is why i need to run.
I can't handle this.
I need one person to talk to.
i miss you.
I always run back to you.
You are my scapegoat, I've said this before.
I'm going to say it again and again.
I will never stop loving you.
Chew me up and spit me out.
again and again and again.
I want you to use and abuse me.
I need you close to me.
I just want your touch.
I don't care how i get that i want it, i need it.
I am lying.
This is all a lie.
I'm going to take this now.
I'll wake up in the night and fly to the moon.







xoxo