+7

Giving up this addiction.
Give it up, it gave up me.
You are my sunshine.
I smile when i see you.
I hate those marks on your body.
Stop hurting yourself.
I love the feeling of you.
You are the best feeling i have felt.
I don't need this.
If you want this drop your weapon.


My current battle is not one that involves you.
I am actually ashamed to talk to you.
I feel dirty, not worthy of your time.
I am turning this around.
I have already begun to clean up my room.
I threw away my dirty things.
The next step is to pick up and get up.
I ruined things with you and i'm deeply sorry.
I am not going to linger on these old feeling.
I will be gone in one year.
I will mend old wounds when it is time.
My clock was stopped and i was unaware of the world.
Time didn't matter, neither did I.
I am going to focus on my well being.
I never really cared if i got hurt.
Its happened before its going to happen again.
I am in an all white room that I'm going to paint.
It's going to be a self portrait.

Starting today i will not substitute drugs for happiness.
I am going to walk away from those people.
I need to.
I can't let him go just yet.
I want to help him.
I just need more time to help him realize he is amazing.
He can do anything, he needs to wake up.
I just want to wake him up.
I never think this through.






xoxo

+6

I just need one positive.
I just need one thing that makes me smile.
I wish i could change you.
I wish i could change the way you think and feel.
You don't need this or that.
I won't leave, i haven't yet.
I might have to go soon.
I don't know if i can handle this.

-7

I hate you.
I hate you.
I hate you.
I hate you.
I hate you.
Why can't you disappear.
Just blow away you idiot.
You are nothing.
No one likes you.
Please tighten the noose.
I hate you.

-6

I have no money in my pocket.
And i'm starting on this trail.
I'm going to take this path,
But not for long, its a short lived path.
I will then turn around and not look back.
I just need to take a walk the opposite way first.
I swear i'll see you soon.





xoxo

(+) (-) (5)

The age old question.
Is this real.
I can't think.
I'm jumbled.
I don't want to rush this.
I don't want to speak to soon.
I think it's safer if i bite my lip.
Until it bleeds.





xoxo

+4

I'm a little light headed.
My outer body is watching me now.
I'm am looking downward upon myself.
I am rethinking what i just did.
How can i make this better before leaving.
I guess i can't because I'm not ready to apologize.
Eating would ground me.
I don't want to float away, but i guess it happens.
I'm only human.
Which means, I'm only a mound of walking shit.
Sorry, that's how i see you and me.
Earthquake alert, this ones an eight.







xoxo