+7

Giving up this addiction.
Give it up, it gave up me.
You are my sunshine.
I smile when i see you.
I hate those marks on your body.
Stop hurting yourself.
I love the feeling of you.
You are the best feeling i have felt.
I don't need this.
If you want this drop your weapon.


My current battle is not one that involves you.
I am actually ashamed to talk to you.
I feel dirty, not worthy of your time.
I am turning this around.
I have already begun to clean up my room.
I threw away my dirty things.
The next step is to pick up and get up.
I ruined things with you and i'm deeply sorry.
I am not going to linger on these old feeling.
I will be gone in one year.
I will mend old wounds when it is time.
My clock was stopped and i was unaware of the world.
Time didn't matter, neither did I.
I am going to focus on my well being.
I never really cared if i got hurt.
Its happened before its going to happen again.
I am in an all white room that I'm going to paint.
It's going to be a self portrait.

Starting today i will not substitute drugs for happiness.
I am going to walk away from those people.
I need to.
I can't let him go just yet.
I want to help him.
I just need more time to help him realize he is amazing.
He can do anything, he needs to wake up.
I just want to wake him up.
I never think this through.






xoxo